我做过一次试管受精,我想再做一次

2020-10-14 07:31

IVF Was the Hardest Thing I've Ever Done, and I Want to Do It Again uGk世界播

试管受精是我做过的最难的事,我还想再做一次。uGk世界播


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To be fair, my IVF journey was a success. I am sitting here staring at my beautiful, hard won, 3-month-old son. If IVF hadn't worked for me, I don't know whether I'd still be considering another round, because I actually had a very tough time dealing with almost every aspect of IVF. uGk世界播

公平地说,我的试管受精之旅是成功的。我坐在这里盯着我那来之不易的3个月大的漂亮儿子。如果试管受精对我不起作用,我不知道我是否还会考虑再来一轮,因为实际上我在处理试管受精的几乎每一个方面都非常困难。uGk世界播


Let's start with how I am not a fan of needles. For anyone who isn't aware, IVF involves tons of needles. Tons and tons. I went for morning monitoring several times a week to test my hormone levels. That was just a blood test, administered by a trained professional. At home, my husband injected me with needles on a nightly basis. He's in finance. Neither one of us felt like we had a clue what we were doing. uGk世界播

让我们从我为什么不喜欢打针开始吧。对于那些没有意识到的人来说,试管受精需要大量的针头。一吨又一吨。我每周去做几次晨间监测,以测试我的荷尔蒙水平。那只是一次验血,由一位训练有素的专业人士进行。在家里,我丈夫每晚都给我打针。他是做金融的。我们都不知道自己在做什么。uGk世界播


The unpleasant amount of needles IVF requires is only one part of what makes IVF so brutal. Consider that the entire time you are injecting frightening levels of hormones into your body, you have no idea if it's even going to work. Doubt and anxiety can definitely take over if you let them. uGk世界播

试管受精所需的针头数量令人不快,这只是试管受精如此残酷的原因之一。想想看,在你给身体注射可怕水平的荷尔蒙的整个过程中,你甚至不知道它是否会起作用。如果你任其发展,怀疑和焦虑肯定会占据上风。uGk世界播


So you're pumped up with hormones, your body feels like a pin cushion, your mind is a mess, and that's just in the beginning. If you're lucky enough to get to the egg retrieval stage, you're looking at a minor surgical procedure. Not a huge deal, but it's a lot more involved than a quick doctor's visit. Then there's the waiting. And that's the worst part of all. IVF is nothing if not waiting. Waiting for blood test results, waiting to find out if your eggs are viable, waiting to see if healthy embryos can be created from the eggs and your partner's hopefully healthy sperm, waiting to find out if your body is primed from all the hormones for implantation, waiting for pregnancy test results. Waiting a week between my implantation and pregnancy test almost made me crazy. I think I cried almost constantly during those nine impossibly long days. uGk世界播

所以你荷尔蒙高涨,你的身体感觉像一个针垫,你的大脑一团糟,而这只是个开始。如果你足够幸运地进入卵子取回阶段,你将看到的是一个小的外科手术。没什么大不了的,但这比去看医生要复杂得多。然后就是等待。这是最糟糕的部分。如果不等待,试管受精什么都不是。等待血液测试结果,等待你的卵子是否可以存活,等待是否能从卵子和你伴侣有望健康的精子中创造出健康的胚胎,等待你的身体是否已经准备好接受植入的所有激素,等待怀孕测试结果。在植入和验孕之间等了一个星期几乎让我发疯。我想在那九天时间里,我几乎一直在哭。uGk世界播


Happily, I found out my IVF cycle had worked. But the injections of hormones weren't over. I had to support my pregnancy artificially for another eight weeks. You'd think that would be no sweat — I was pregnant, after all! But there's little joy in your husband injecting your behind with a one-inch needle every single night for 60 days. uGk世界播

令人高兴的是,我发现我的试管受精周期起作用了。但是荷尔蒙的注射并没有结束。我不得不再人工支持我的怀孕8周。你会认为那不费劲--毕竟我怀孕了!但是你的丈夫连续60天每晚都给你的后背注射一英寸的针头,这可不是什么乐事。uGk世界播


When we'd finally been discharged from our fertility doctor, I swore I'd never set foot in that place again. Who in their right mind would? But then, seven months later, my beautiful, perfect, amazing son was born. Seeing the miracle that had resulted from all that hard work was all I needed to start pondering another go. As I gaze at my sweet baby, the needles and uncertainty seem like distant memories. Was IVF really that bad? I mean, here's this perfect little baby, and all I had to do was fumble around with a few needles and get some blood tests, right? uGk世界播

当我们终于从生育医生那里出院时,我发誓我再也不会踏足那个地方了。哪个心智正常的人会这么做呢?但是,七个月后,我美丽、完美、令人惊叹的儿子出生了。看到所有这些辛勤工作所产生的奇迹,我只需要开始考虑另一次尝试。当我凝视着我可爱的宝宝时,针和不确定似乎是遥远的记忆。试管婴儿真的那么糟糕吗?我的意思是,这是一个完美的小宝宝,我所要做的就是摸索着用几根针头做一些血液测试,对吗?uGk世界播


Of course, I know the experience was far from simple. It wasn't that long ago I spent countless nights wailing on the floor, sobbing to my husband that we were doing all of this for nothing. It wasn't that long ago my backside was so scarred from nightly injections I looked like I had some sort of skin condition. Part of me feels like it would be insane to voluntarily endure another cycle of IVF. Besides, just because it worked the first time doesn't guarantee it will work again, so I'd have to contend with all that anxiety over the outcome again. Also, it's really expensive. But the other part of me is so in love with what came out of my emotional IVF experience. And I know how incredibly lucky I am to be able to do it again if I choose. uGk世界播

当然,我知道这段经历并不简单。就在不久前,我花了无数个夜晚在地板上哭泣,对我的丈夫哭泣,我们做的所有这些都是徒劳的。就在不久前,我的背部因为夜间注射而伤痕累累,看起来就像是得了某种皮肤病。我的一部分感觉是自愿忍受另一个试管受精周期是疯狂的。此外,仅仅因为它第一次奏效并不能保证它会再次奏效,所以我将不得不再次与所有对结果的焦虑作斗争。而且,它真的很贵。但我的另一部分是如此热爱我的情感试管受精经历。我知道,如果我愿意的话,能够再做一次,我是多么的幸运。uGk世界播


The bottom line is that IVF is soul-trying beyond words. Yet, similarly to childbirth, it's easy to forget the agony as soon as you set eyes on your baby, and I'd do it again in a heartbeat. uGk世界播

归根结底,试管受精是一种超越语言的灵魂考验。然而,就像分娩一样,你一看到你的孩子就很容易忘记这种痛苦,我会在瞬间再次做到这一点。uGk世界播

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